“Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run…” Hebrews 12:1
One of the greatest blessings of the calling to healing prayer ministry is the privilege of being witness to the incredible works God does in the lives of people as they spend time in His presence and anointing.
So often, when people come to me seeking healing prayer, it is with a desperation for freedom from whatever burden they are carrying. It is funny how very often we seek God’s healing as a last resort, when the pain has become almost unbearable, and when we accept that we really have no where else to go. But praise be to Him who’s grace covers all wrong, so that He comes to us wonderfully and mercifully no matter how dark the paths we have chosen before Him.
Almost always when I begin prayer with someone seeking healing, I can almost see the heaviness of the burden they are carrying as they enter into prayer. Often people come with a spirit of timidity, clearly at the end of their rope, even doubting whether this is going to work. It is a mustard-seed-size of faith that brings them to God at that point, as they often feel that they have been abandoned by Him, maybe even believing the lie that He really doesn’t care about their pain.
Typically, after spending time – perhaps an hour or several hours – in God’s presence, I find that people feel worn out, but in a really good way. I’ve known a similar feeling at other times in my life. One example I remember was after a 12-hour day volunteering with Christmas in April, repairing the bathroom or painting the walls of the house of an elderly member of the community. All of the volunteers met at the end of the day for a big dinner, stinking of body odor and dirt and paint, feeling sore and maybe burned from being out in the sun all day. We were worn out and hurting, but also grateful. Even grateful for the pain, feeling almost a bit of freedom from it. Many of us felt stronger and more alive than we had in some time.
This is kind of the way it is when we spend a lot of time in the presence of our Lord. Remember Isaiah 9:6 – “And he will be called Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God, Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace. “ Or John 14:6 – “Jesus answered, ‘I am the way and the truth and the life.’”
Wonderful Counselor, Prince of Peace, the Way, the Truth, the Life. These words give us a glimpse of the magnificent nature of Jesus. And let us be careful not to buy into the enemy’s sugary-sweet version of what these words mean. These things He brings to us – peace, truth, life – these are mighty, powerful things, that come at a dear price. God is gentle with us, but He’s not going to let us sit in His presence as spoiled children. The intimacy and steady intensity of the healing process is amazing and beautiful, and at times, exhausting. As the Lord cleans away the old, rotting death that we carry, cleanses our wounds with the washing of His blood, and fills us with His Holy Spirit – through this process of receiving the wholeness and life He brings – we may be left feeling worn out.
As we enter into His presence, we naturally begin to understand and to experience the things of His nature. As we spend time in fellowship with Him, it is inevitable that the things in our life that are not of Him – the things that keep us weighed down and in darkness – will begin to be uncovered from that place where we have hidden them so deeply in our spirits. As we give Him our time and attention, He will gently, but persistently bring up those areas of sin and brokenness in our lives, not in order to condemn us, but to heal us. To free us. So that we can run.